2 posts tagged “philippines”

You don't understand how much I relate.

You don't understand how much we need this right now.

I've seen the same things. I've felt the same pain. One race, feeling that it is superior to mine, forcing us into terrible, unspeakable situations.

I feel the same pain inside myself. Having to see my fellow Filipinos kiss ass to supposedly "better" nationalities, because we're not good enough, because our skin is so dark, our country is too poor. I understand this. I don't want to. I don't make an effort to. But I just do.

Feeling completely disconnected from my roots.

Hating myself for being born this way.

Turning on the t.v. seeing how desperate my country has become, clinging onto any mentions in American television, stealing from it's own taxpayers and seeing them turn their backs on the ones in need in order to preserve their current lifestyles.

Is it any mystery that skin-lightening products are on the shelves of every drug store in the Philippines?

Is it so irregular that Filipino entertainers have never achieved fame in South Asia?

No.

The entire region looks down upon us.

We're fed breadcrumbs,

Treated as afterthoughts,

We hide our nationalities in order to gain a little recognition.

Learning the English language is a requirement in the Philippines, however, just try finding a language center in the USA that offers Tagalog, the official language of the Philippines.

Our government is ridiculously corrupt, and is more than happy to get on it's hands and knees for the USA.

I can't stand it.

I hate it.

I want more. More from the Philippines. More from Filipinos. I want change.

I want a fucking revolution.

We talk a lot of shit about being proud to be Filipino. It's disgusting. Especially when I hear the word bayanihan. 

Since when?

If this concept is so precious to the Philippines, then why is it the way it is now?

Why can't we band together for the greater good?

Why are we so selfish?

I can't stand it.

I hate it so much.

No one wants to stand by me.

Ah, because we've become such superficial creatures.

I want to uproot the entire Philippine government.

I want a revolution...
I want a revolution
I want a revolution

I want it
I want it

We need it

Not just a revolution for the Philippines. But a revolution for humankind.

You probably don't understand. That's alright. Soon. Soon you will.

I'll admit it. I didn't like living there. Perhaps I wasn't there long enough, but those two months were grueling. Ah, yes, yes, there are good parts. Shallow good parts. But there are also deep-seated insecurities and hypocrisies that constantly attacked. Take the National Hero: Jose Rizal for example. Rizal was not Catholic. I don't believe that he converted before his execution, not to save my personal opinions of the man, but it's just so unlikely. He was against what the Spaniards brought to the Philippines, and Catholicism was one of those things. There was strong anti-catholic material in his writing, Yet you see his image everywhere.

There's Rizal day, and students are required to study his life and works. But whats the point? Neh, everyday they pay disrespect to the mans' memory. I don't believe that they truly see him as a hero. Yet he deserves it, more than most "heroes" there.

The Philippines had a choice with Rizal. And it chose to be afraid.

The country that I was born in, chose "the fear of God".

I don't respect that at all.

However, I believe that the Philippines will transcend that choice made long ago, and through this act, other countries will follow.

I believe this, because I work for it.

I will keep my pen moving across the pages, writing, showing everyone today's Filipino.

Unafraid, Complex, Independent and Strong.

I do not believe that I can do this being a small town Literature teacher. In order to make an impact, I need gravity. To draw people in.

And that means one thing.

Fame.

"I will return to set them all free."

(imported from xanga. original site shut down.)